I haven't blogged since April and can't even tell you where the last 3 months have gone, let alone the last year. You see, at the beginning of the year we found out my 13 year old had been self-harming & having suicidal thoughts. I am not posting this for sympathy... I'm posting this because I know there are many of you that can relate but are probably too scared to talk about it. Me too. As I've started to open up about what is happening at home, I realize we are not alone. From my experience, many of our children are feeling a HUGE shift in our world. Old ideals & ways of being are no more. To name a few: sexuality, gender identity, female/male roles.
I'm not gonna lie, I've probably reacted in all the wrong ways. Straight up crazy town! Outside of myself, scared, sad, mad. My baby is hurting and I want to fix it. Unfortunately, my emotions haven't helped her stability. Since the beginning of the summer, she's been living with her dad.
At first, I was absolutely heart broken. (I still am if I'm honest.) I was scared I might not see her again. The anxiety was getting the best of me. Thank God for good friends, mentors & meditation! I gift myself at least an hour a day to tune into my true feelings and thoughts. What I know is: Everything will be okay. That my fear doesn't create anything good. I can love her from a distance right now and this distance between us isn't forever. Maybe all of this is perfect?
What I have discovered since she's been gone is that I needed the time and mental capacity to create The Intuition Academy. This safe space that my mom has assisted me in creating, has come together with ease. What we are experiencing as a family is shaping the foundation of this company. We want to welcome you to our community.
Next Saturday, July 29th at 7-9pm at Big Cottonwood Storm Mtn. Amphitheater, we are having a launch party. I invite you to share this experience with me and explore different ways we can support each other in being our authentic selves without resistance. Please invite anyone you think would be the "perfect mentor".
I KNOW life can be easier. I feel it in my heart. I know that every night we go to sleep, something happens, and we wake up anew. I can't find a solution yet, but I know together we can create one.