I have this sweet friend, Darrell Scharman. To know him, is to love him. He just called me and reminded me of how quickly a week goes by. His wise words always come at the perfect timing. =) We talked about when we do work to help lift other people up, it rises us up as well. It's all about enjoying the process. He reminded me to blog about my experiences so that I can help you heal through my experiences. So here we go!
My biggest life lessons:
Divorce//Finding Self Worth
Being a child of divorced parent and then getting divorced at an early age myself, there has been a lot of things I've attached to and have had to heal around this subject. Jason, my husband is my rock and saving grace. His faith in me and us is unwavering & I'm forever grateful for the role he plays in my life.
I'm pretty sure my angels would talk to me in my sleep when I was little. Keeping me positive, helping me see the silver lining in all the shitty situations around me. Sometimes I had the hardest time finding happiness, but that inner spark was enough to keep me going.
Sister's Death//Love Is In Me
I can pretty much remember the day part of my soul left my body. It was the day Amy left this Earth. A lot of my identity was in my best friend. I had forgotten how to laugh, dance, and enjoy any type of pleasure almost all together. I've had to explore and find that in myself for the first time ever.
Real Estate Market Crash//Determination
I'm grateful for the days of helping people short sale or foreclose on their home. Days of helping local builders come up a fun strategy to set them apart from the competition. Volunteering with so many great souls in the industry. My journey has not been easy, but most definitely humbling. It was a good place to put my energy after Amy passed. I'll admit I isolated myself and pushed away most of my friends during this time. When Tucker was born, a whole new energy entered our home!
Partnerships//Synchronicity & Patterns
Over the last 10+ years in the real estate industry, I've repeated a pattern. One where I'm scared to step into a leadership role, so I do a good job of building someone else's business. Even in times where I think I'm an equal partner. I've recently discovered many different ways to navigate how I show up in the world and what areas I lack in. Also, what types of people I mesh well with. It's allowed me to be completely authentic with friends & connect with them on another level.
Career Implosion//Art of Surrender
Mistake after mistake in my real estate career, (learning lessons, I mean) I realized my true gift was not selling homes. In fact, the art of selling a home had lost it's appeal. Summer of 2016, I found myself in the rabbit hole, with another failing partnership & no gumption to do it again. What I found by surrendering, was my purpose & my ideal day with an ideal client: supporting women entrepreneurs pursue their dreams.
As much as I've manifested good in my life, I've also manifested the bad. I have probably taken too much "time off", reflecting on what direction to take. My safety net is gone, but this isn't the first time and I'm sure it won't be the last. I know we're taking a big risk, but I have faith that everything will come to us within divine timing. My thoughts are powerful, so all I have is faith.
I now know that the "Universe" will deliver the right person on your doorstep at the perfect time. I've received so many messages and witnessed many miracles this year. I've never felt so fulfilled and so broke in my life. LOL! Isn't that what it's all about? Finding the good and love in everything, no matter the circumstances? No matter how fat or thin our bank accounts are. The opposite of fear is love. Love shows up in all kinds of miracles. My heart is full!