I had the funnest memory come up yesterday that I'm still smiling about today. It was the end of my junior year in high school I think.... we were giving out awards to everyone on the drill team. My award was "Foot In The Mouth". I got this award because I have no filter! Haha!
Sometimes this trait in myself makes me want to isolate because I can sense how I make someone feel when I'm too honest. On the other side of that fear, I also know how trustworthy I am. You can tell me anything and I'll love you anyway. I might tell your secrets because I have no filter, but it's because I truly feel there is no reason for secrets.
At the end of the day, I'm learning of how beautiful of a gift it is to be my nerdy self. The weirder I am, the more authentic my conversations and relationships are. That was the fulfillment factor I was missing. All of a sudden, I don't feel isolated.
Honestly, this is the conversation I'm having with my kids. Sometimes I get frustrated with conformity. I rebel against order, such as being an employee, being a good tax payer, etc. (GAH! I I really should be working on my taxes right now.) I can't look my kids in the face and tell them I believe in the structure of our day to day. If my "true self" was talking right now, she would say that the following:
- Working a 9-5 is boring and crazy. WHY do we dedicate so much of our time away from pleasure and our families to make big corporations & big government rich?
- Why do we cut off all our creativity and keep cutting it out of our children's schools? Where is the fun in anything anymore?
I have a lot to do to heal my inner child because I've been way too responsible for way too long. I've forgotten all the things I love & am on a mission to find them again. I challenge you to do the same. We are truly the creators of our own lives. Allow yourself the freedom you have in your own hands, both mentally and physically. You are your own judge, learn how to not give so many f*cks about everything.
It feels AHHHHHMAAAAAZING!